It’s Tuesday evening, and I'm just typing out what’s going on in my head right now. Full disclaimer here: my head feels really weird. I’m running on fumes - but oddly, I kind of like it. So if this turns out to be a rambling load of nonsense… sorry in advance.

So, remember last week when I said work had calmed down, and I was enjoying time with friends, family, and just life? Well, it’s almost like the universe overheard me and went, “Haha, nope! Think again!” This week has already been crazy busy - and it’s only Tuesday. Yesterday, I didn’t finish work until midnight (which is super late for me), and today has been non-stop too. But weirdly… I’m enjoying it. Yes, I’m clearly overtired - I can feel it. I’m slightly delusional at this point. Tonight, I was so lost in my own thoughts I genuinely thought I was the last one left in the office - until I nearly walked straight into someone on my way out and gave myself a mini heart attack. 

Something else I was thinking about today: the last clients I met were completely new. At first, they’re just two strangers sitting across from me - I know nothing about them. But then, over a two-hour conversation, their whole lives start to unfold. Through all the questions and answers, they go from being blank canvases to becoming these fascinating, complex people with their own stories, backgrounds, and mindsets. It’s brilliant. And the more they talk, the more you get to see who they really are.

It’s kind of magical, isn’t it? You could sit someone in front of you, silent, and all you’d see is the surface. But through conversation, you uncover so much: their experiences, fears, hopes, and stories. Imagine a job where that’s literally what you do all day - just talking to people and really seeing them. No follow-up reports, no admin, no compliance. Just diving deep into people’s lives. I honestly don’t think I’d ever get bored of that. I mean, that is the dream right there.

I’m lucky that in my job, I do get to do a version of that. Even though I’m a financial adviser, it's never just about the money - it’s about people’s lives, their mindsets, and how to move them forward. New clients often apologise for going off-topic, but honestly, that’s the best part. That’s where you hear what really matters to them, what drives them, and what they actually want.

I know I’m running on about two hours of sleep right now and sound completely delirious - but these past couple of days have reminded me why I love what I do. It also brought back memories of how miserable I was in my last job. It wasn’t the work itself that drained me; it was the environment and the toxic culture created by 'those above'. Now, I’m still a financial adviser, but it feels completely different because I get to do it in a way that actually feels meaningful.

And if you’re stuck in a job you hate right now? Maybe it isn’t really the job itself. More often than not, it’s the environment that drains you - the toxic bosses, the gossipy coworkers. 

But remember: you don’t necessarily have to give up on what you do. You can change where and how you do it. Do what feels right for you. Look, I know it’s not easy. It definitely wasn’t easy for me to walk away from a high-paying job and all my clients. But it was so worth it. Nothing - absolutely nothing - is more important than your mental health and well-being. Nothing.

Anyway, that’s where my head’s at tonight. Running on empty, slightly delirious, but oddly grateful - and excited for tomorrow. 🩷🩷