I know, I promised I wouldn’t keep giving daily updates on my sobriety journey - and I won’t… forever.

But today feels different.

I’m at day 25, and I genuinely feel like I’ve turned a corner.

If you’re just starting out, keep going past the three-week mark.

The first few weeks are tough. You might expect things to start feeling better after a couple of weeks - after all, isn’t that the typical length of most treatment programmes? (I might be wrong - maybe it’s longer; to be fair, I don’t really know.) But for me, the real shift didn’t happen until after three weeks. Of course, everyone’s journey is different, but just know that persistence really does pay off.

Especially if you’ve been drinking most nights for years - your body and mind need time to catch up. It’s hard. You’ll want to give up. But if you can just hang in there, it’s so worth it.

Now, my mind feels calmer.

Clearer.

Nothing feels quite as urgent anymore. I feel more at peace.

The cravings that used to hit in the evenings aren’t the same.

I’m learning new ways to relax, new ways to spend my evenings - ways that don’t involve numbing out.

For the last few years, I felt like I was living on a completely different vibration. Not awful, but not peaceful either. I was wired all the time - caffeine, alcohol, overworking, constant thinking. I wasn’t really there. I wasn’t calm.

I remember Jessie at the retreat showing us that diagram - the person with red thoughts swirling above their head and the blue calm dot at the centre. The one I told you about in my previous post.

I thought I understood it then… but I don’t think I was truly present enough to get it.

Now, without the noise - without alcohol, without so much caffeine, without constantly pushing - I finally feel “online.” Like, I get what Jessie was talking about. 

And I can actually see things again.

I’m noticing opportunities I’d have missed before - in life, in business, in conversations.

And the stillness that used to feel uncomfortable?

It’s starting to feel okay. 

The other day, I was thinking - you know when you build something new, like an extension or a new kitchen?

At the start, it’s just chaos - dust everywhere, rubbish piled up, nothing looks like progress.

Starting a business, or rebuilding yourself, feels the same.

Messy. Frustrating. Like you’re getting nowhere.

But if you keep going, little by little, things start to take shape.

You notice small wins.

Your hard work starts to show.

And suddenly, you realise - all that effort you thought wasn’t doing anything was building the foundation all along.

Eventually, you’ve built something solid. Sure, it’ll still need work - things will break, parts will need updating - but the groundwork is there. You just keep adapting.

I guess that’s what this feels like - building something new from the ground up.

My business. My sobriety. My self.

If you keep going - even when it feels pointless, even when nothing’s visible yet - eventually, you’ll see it take shape.

And if what you’re building is you, it’ll be the most worthwhile project you ever take on.

It won’t be smooth. There’ll be highs and lows.

But over time, things get better. You get calmer. Stronger. More in tune.

And maybe that’s the point - you never really finish building.

You just keep learning, growing, and maintaining the masterpiece that is you. 🩷