Today I woke up at 3 a.m. I tried to go back to sleep, but my mind was buzzing. You know that feeling when your body is exhausted, but your thoughts just won’t slow down? Eventually, I gave up and got out of bed at 4 a.m.

Suddenly, all these ideas started landing at once. It felt like a switch flipped. Like, I get it now. I get what Jessie’s been teaching me, and everything else is starting to connect. It was like a penny dropped, and now my head is full of thoughts that need somewhere to go.

That’s why I’m writing. My brain is moving faster than my hands can type, and I reckon I could write several blog posts right now...if my hands don’t get too tired. I feel hyped. I know I’ll probably crash later today, but in this moment, I feel like I’m on another level. So here I am, sharing what’s coming up for me.

Why I Started This Blog

You know, I’m glad I started this blog. Writing has become my way of processing life. It’s how I make sense of my thoughts and get them out of my head and into some kind of order. When my mind is buzzing like it is right now, I might post nearly every day. Other times, when my brain is quieter, it might drop back to two posts a week. And that’s okay, that’s just how I work.

Some people might say it would be better to schedule posts and be more consistent. That it would help with visibility or growth. But that’s not what this is about for me. This blog works because I do it my way. I write when something naturally comes up, and that’s why I enjoy it. If I imposed rules or expectations that didn’t feel right, it would stop being enjoyable.

And really… isn’t that kind of like life in general? When you do things just because other people say that’s how they should be done, rather than doing them in a way that feels natural to you, it drains the joy right out of them.

Thoughts, Inner Wisdom, and That Calm Place

Over the past few months (especially since working with Jessie) I’ve written a lot about thoughts (that loud, frantic scribble buzzing above your head) and inner wisdom (that calm, steady blue dot underneath it all). That quiet knowing. The place beneath the noise.

The more I notice my thoughts, and how they shape how I feel, the easier it becomes to reconnect with that calm place underneath. But that doesn’t mean it’s always accessible. As I mentioned in a previous post, there are still times when my feelings become overwhelming and I can’t think clearly. And that’s normal, right? It happens to everyone. In those moments, clarity vanishes, and tuning into my inner wisdom feels impossible. 

What I’ve learned, though, is not to fight it. Instead, I do something that feels right in my body: go for a walk, hit the gym, put on a podcast, clear my head. Because I know now that clarity can’t be forced. Jessie taught me that these moments always pass. Thoughts and feelings come in waves - for everyone. They rise, they fall, and what I’m feeling in any given moment is simply a reaction to my thoughts… even when I don’t fully understand what those thoughts are saying.

When You Stop Believing Every Thought

Once you understand the nature of thoughts, something changes. You start recognising when they’re unhelpful. You see them for what they really are - not facts, not truth - just stories your mind is telling you in that moment. That’s when you can pause. Listen inward. And choose what to do next.

I’m starting to notice my unhelpful thoughts more clearly now. And this might sound obvious, but thoughts feel like life itself, right? Unless you start questioning them or becoming aware of them, they just feel like reality. But the life you’re living is actually a result of the thoughts running through your head.

Now that I can recognise them, instead of getting caught up in them, I remind myself: that’s just a story in my head. Then I tune into what feels like the right thing to do in that moment. Earlier today, my mind started spiralling because I hadn’t seen someone at work. Given what this person is currently going through, my thoughts jumped straight to what if they’re not okay? For some reason, especially when it comes to this person, my mind seems to love doing that, turning small uncertainties into full-on worry sessions.

As a result, I started feeling anxious. So I paused and asked myself, Okay Sarah, what would help right now? What feels like the right thing to do? The answer was simple: Just text the receptionist, she’ll know. So I did. And it turns out this person is absolutely fine. Instantly, my mind settled. An unhelpful thought came up. I listened inward. I acted, and just like that, the worry passed.

Caring Deeply (And Not Apologising for It)

I just want to be honest for a moment. About a year or so ago, I started questioning what it means to care about other people - like, is it normal to care so much about someone? I wasn’t sure. But now… I don’t worry about what’s “normal” or what anyone else might think. I’m learning to listen to my inner wisdom, and I don’t question it anymore.

Take the receptionist at work. I’m so grateful she’s in my life. I think she’s an amazing person. I care about her a lot, and I don’t care if that sounds weird to anyone else - I just do. And the same goes for the person I mentioned before, going through a tough situation. Deep down, I know they’re a good person, and for some reason, I really care about them too.

I’m not going to apologise for that. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks. What matters to me is that they’re okay. That’s what’s important to me. That feeling, knowing they’re okay, means something. And that's enough.

When You Start Trusting Yourself 

I’m slowly learning to tell the difference between my thoughts and my inner knowing. For the first time, I’m really listening to myself. Not the noisy thoughts bouncing around in my head, but me. Trusting myself. Setting boundaries that feel right. Taking actions that honour what I need. And yeah…for me, that’s a whole new way of being.

Once you start trusting yourself, things shift. Boundaries (things that once felt hard) start to feel natural. Those old thoughts show up less often: Is that selfish? What if they get upset? And when they do appear, they don’t have the same grip. You see them for what they are: made-up stories.

When you finally set boundaries to protect your peace - the very things those thoughts were stopping you from doing - life actually improves. People respond to clarity. And when your actions come from calm, steady knowing, they’re grounded in truth. They don’t just protect you. They positively affect the world around you too.

The Weight of All the “Shoulds”

Think about how many things you’ve done in life simply because you felt you should. Not because they felt right for you, but because they were expected. We’re constantly bombarded with messages about what life “should” look like: buy a house, get married, have kids by a certain age; climb the career ladder and earn more; look a certain way, act a certain way, live a certain way. Even happiness seems like something you have to earn by following all the rules.

It’s loud. Convincing. Exhausting. And none of it is really you. It’s just more external noise layered on top of the noise in your own head - drowning out the quiet inner wisdom that already knows what’s right for you.

Finding Your Way Back

I think this is why so many people feel lost. They’re buried under expectations, opinions, pressure, and constant mental chatter. Without realising it, they start living according to all that noise instead of listening to themselves. They lose touch with that inner wisdom, the only place real truth lives.

But it’s still there. You just have to find your way back to it. Beneath all the noise, expectations, and mental clutter, it’s still there - quietly waiting to be noticed. Becoming aware of it changes everything, it really does. This time last year, my own head felt like a nonstop storm. Endless thoughts. No quiet. No grounding. It’s overwhelming when you’re stuck in that space. The only way out - the only way to feel calm, grounded, and truly yourself - is to reconnect with that inner wisdom that lives in all of us.

Stillness Changes Everything

For me, stillness has been huge. Just sitting quietly. Breathing. Tuning into myself. A few minutes at a time, several times a day. It doesn’t sound like much, but the consistency has made a big difference. Because how can you feel at peace if you’re living by other people’s rules? How can you know what you want if you’re constantly distracted by expectations that aren’t yours? Once you start trusting yourself, life feels lighter. Decisions become easier. Boundaries form naturally. You stop overthinking everything. You stop apologising for being who you are.

Freedom That Feels Like Flying

Here’s what I love most: the more you live aligned with your inner wisdom, the freer you feel. That freedom isn’t loud or flashy. It’s quiet. Calm. Real. It feels like flying again after carrying invisible weights for years. We’re all born as pure energy. Then life slowly layers us with stories, beliefs, and expectations, until one day we forget what freedom even feels like.

But when we start letting go of what was never ours, we remember. And when we remember, we don’t just exist. We live. 🩷