Do you ever have days where you just feel… meh - for no obvious reason at all? Nothing dramatic has happened. There’s no clear trigger. Nothing you can point to and say, that’s it. You’re just… off.

I think today, for me, it’s tiredness. I haven’t been sleeping well the last few nights, and today it felt like I couldn’t handle things the way I normally do. Not even close. Everything felt harder. Louder. Heavier. Even small things felt like effort. I went for a quick spin session this evening, hoping it might lift my mood, but it didn’t really help.

So I voice-noted Jessie. Well… half voice-noted her, because Luke came in halfway through. I was spiralling a bit, asking myself, Why am I in such a rubbish mood? Does this actually mean something? And then I caught myself mid-thought and said, no. No, it doesn’t. Sarah, you’re just in a rubbish mood.

Jessie voice-noted me back and said something I needed to hear: You’re not going to think clearly right now. Just ride it out.

When you’re in it - tired, emotional, and worn down - you’re not going to find clarity. Your feelings aren’t there to give you answers in that moment; they’re just… there. I know I need to ride it out until the emotions settle and clarity returns. So that’s what I’m doing. Riding it out.

I hate feeling like this. Especially because I was fine yesterday. Isn’t that always the way? One day you’re coping, the next day everything feels like too much. Maybe tomorrow it’ll be clearer what’s really bothering me or why today hit the way it did. But for now, I’m riding the wave, because that’s all I can do right now.

Of course, my mind is still going around in circles. Someone recently shared with me what she’s going through, and today it’s been weighing on me - probably because I’m overtired and irritable. It’s just frustrating that she even has to go through it at all. When you see someone who’s genuinely a good person dealing with something really hard, it’s just difficult to see.

I do believe there’s a positive in everything, I really do. But in the moment, when someone is going through something deeply painful, that idea can feel hard to hold onto. Right now, it just feels irritating. Especially when there are kids involved. It feels unfair. It feels rubbish. And there’s nothing I can really do or say to make it better, which somehow makes it feel even worse.

It reminds me of a client I saw recently. In her words, her life was taken away from her - the life she knew, the one she was used to. Even two years on, she’s still grieving that old life. Still coming to terms with what happened. Still trying to build something new. I feel grateful that I can support her, but you can see just how deeply it’s affected her, emotionally and financially.

And it keeps bringing me back to this thought. I think so many women are constantly trying to hold everything together - their kids, their families, their jobs, everyone else’s needs and emotions. And somehow, quietly and without really noticing it happening, they come last. They put everyone else first, again and again, until there’s very little space left for themselves.

But looking after yourself matters. It really matters. Your health, your finances, your sense of self, your overall well-being - they’re not optional extras. They’re essential. You can’t keep holding everything together if you’re slowly falling apart in the process.

So if today is one of those days for you too - the kind where everything feels off - don’t try to give it meaning right now. Just ride it out. Emotions come and go, and this feeling isn’t permanent, even if it feels heavy in the moment.

Clarity comes later, when you’re feeling calmer and more like yourself again. So for now, be kind to yourself. Do something that feels gentle and right in the moment - maybe a walk, a quiet hour, or whatever brings you a little ease.

And try not to spiral into questioning why you feel this way. When you’re emotional, those thoughts rarely help. Sometimes the kindest thing you can do is simply let the moment pass. 🩷