This week has been pretty full-on in the run-up to Christmas, but somehow I’ve managed to get most of my Christmas shopping done (thank you, Amazon, you absolute lifesaver). I’ve only got one more trip into town left - maybe Monday I'll brave it. In, out, avoid eye contact, dodge every queue… just survive.

I genuinely can’t tell whether I wrote my last non-money blog post last week or earlier this week. Time has completely lost all meaning. I’ve also barely been sleeping - struggling to fall asleep for hours and then waking up at around 4 a.m. for no apparent reason - which is very much not my usual behaviour. Everything feels a bit off, so my internal clock is basically running on pure vibes. I'm just waiting to crash at any moment.

Caring About Someone You Barely Know

Anyway, you might remember I mentioned in Tuesday’s blog post (I think it was Tuesday…) that there was someone I don’t really know very well whom I’d been worrying about. I still catch myself worrying now and then, although to be fair, it didn’t start that way.

The concern started after a conversation with someone who, in my humble opinion, is one of the kindest and most caring people I know. She told me about this person’s situation. It’s not gossip, it’s genuine concern. She knows I’d never repeat anything, and she also knows I actually care. But suddenly my brain went: Aww man, that’s not good… that’s slightly concerning… that’s worrying…

And then, just the other day, she told me more about the situation. The only problem is her brain jumps to worst-case scenario… which, unfortunately, mine is more than happy to join. Solid teamwork, really.

So basically it goes like this:

"Okay Sarah, this person said this and this… that sounds bad… they’re probably not going to have a great Christmas…it’s going to be really tough for them… so sad… and what if this happens…"

And then someone walks in, or I have to go upstairs and actually do some work, and I’m like:
"Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. That’s definitely not going to be stuck in my head all day… at all."

Recognising Genuinely Good People

You know when someone is just… genuinely good? And when someone you trust says they are, that’s basically a rubber stamp, right? So yes, I’m about 99.99% sure this person is a truly good human being - and yes, I do have an excellent judge of character, based on this sixth sense of mine, thank you very much.

But on a positive note - while I genuinely hope they’re okay and safe - I’ve also been reassured that they have family and friends around them. And that’s incredibly comforting. Way more important than the swirling red thoughts my brain keeps throwing at me, right? Maybe that’s the “blue dot” I keep going on about - that quiet, inner calm that reminds me that, even though the situation is tough, they have support, and in the end, I'm sure they will be okay.

Finding Your “Blue Dot” This Christmas

So now I’m winding down for the Christmas period. My last day of meetings is Tuesday, and I’ll be taking some time off between Christmas and New Year to spend with family and friends, and hopefully, completely switch off.

Before I go fully offline, here’s a thought I want to leave you with: life is messy, chaotic, and sometimes our brains love to replay the worst-case scenario on loop. But somewhere in all that noise, there’s always a “blue dot.” That quiet little spot that reminds you to take a breath, trust yourself, and remember that your future self will figure it out. Don’t overthink it - things will work out, even if the path isn’t clear right now.

And hey, if nothing else, maybe we can survive the pre-Christmas chaos together - armed with caffeine (obviously) and the comforting thought that none of us really know what we’re doing. And that’s completely fine. Somehow, we’ll muddle through, and eventually, it’ll all be okay. 🩷